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<\/figure>\n\n\n\nLooking back on the last five years of his life, Callender acknowledged that he was preparing for this new journey, not just as an author but as someone who could use his experiences and knowledge to help transform the lives of others.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
In 2016, at the height of his success in soca, he suffered from depression and left the country, abandoning his family.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
It was the culmination of pressures, from the premature birth of his second daughter in 2014 to the disintegration of his marriage as well as financial pressures from house renovations that triggered his depression.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
When he did return to the country later in 2016, he went into therapy.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cThose years, 2016, 2017, 2018 was a time of the rebuilding of self. I had that uncomfortable conversation with my wife and one of the biggest lessons I had to learn was listening. We have been separated four years now,\u201d he revealed.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Asked if his years of not having a hit song was a factor in his depression, Callender said nothing he went through mentally had anything to do with music.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cI never viewed that as a bar for me\u2026I was a facilitator of the arts from before. I worked hard, sleepless nights to contribute to the arts. I did Synergy Soca Star, Fireball\u2019s song “What I Want” was written by me, Iwer\u2019s Fete after Fete was written by me. So not having a song didn\u2019t make me feel anyhow. My struggle was me trying to find a better me, I didn\u2019t want to end up a regular clich\u00e9 as a man and a father so I worked on forging better relationships with the mothers of my two children,\u201d he explained.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Callender used Twitter a lot to ventilate his thoughts and feelings during those years.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
He said the advice from his therapist was to journal and he used the platform in that way. But now, he is into journaling and one of his favourite activities is to do a grateful challenge every month where every day he writes three things he is grateful for.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cAt end of 30 days go back and read it. You will be enlightened. It teaches you how to be grateful for everything in your life,\u201d he said.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
His father\u2019s death on September 30 last year also played a major role in his rebuilding.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
His dad was a pastor and though they didn\u2019t see eye to eye on many things, through Jaiga’s emotional growth they were able to bond over the last five years.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Through his father\u2019s sermons, Callender found fuel to answer his calling.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cWhen my dad died, I went Chancellor Hill every morning. There I found my peace and I used his sermons to give a quote of the day to my followers. Going through his death was my teaching,\u201d said Callender, who has found his own pulpit doing motivational talks to the youth and other men. He also speaks on many life topics every Wednesday on his podcast Third Party with Nikki Crosby and Ro\u2019dey.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cMentally, I am in the best place of my life, it is a journey every day. I am working on mending relationships with family and friends,\u201d he said, noting that he does not expect everyone to accept the change.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
He stated: \u201cI don\u2019t live in the house I used to so stop knocking. Some people are so comfortable in your disabilities they want to keep visiting you where you used to live.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n